hmmm, a long time since i sat down and did some self reflection...

this time round theres alot for me to reflect on, as in, hahah procrastinated ones... hmmm, never had the chance to stop and quietly think about my doings...

ya, and i need to learn to accept fate as its something i can never change... everything has a law behind it... so it seems that how imbalanced life is, you getting what you don't want and losing what you want.. but once you understand and get used to the logic, you learn to move on...

responsibility, is what i have been leaking of.. i no longer think of consequences behind my actions as much as last time... and that, i did not fufil alot of responsibility i was supposed to.. not doing work assigned to me, not keeping track of group work, and its alot like breaking promises, meaning not doing what you agreed to do... hmmm, i think alot of people will suffer due to this..

confidence, determined my success and failures... i learnt to never be overconfident..

my attitude changed drastically and i had become more rude than ever.. raising voice, using vulgarities more often, hmmmm....

if anyone should understand what im thinking, then they will know that im one of the most hypocritical people... i behave differently according to different people i hang out with, and i hang out with different people almost every hour... i do not know if i should call this being a hypocrite or being a neutral party but i actually hang out with different groups, even if those groups are in conflicts... and i would somehow act blur...

i am also losing peer respect, as in, respecting them... basic courtesy had been forgotten...

im also losing the helpful side of me, and end up putting myself in top priority... i would only do things that benifits me, if not, there will sure be a motive, be it good or bad...

health, and its not a joke... ice milo, teh peng, western food everyday is not a very good idea, and sleeping late... drinking lesser and lesser water...

lacking self-dicipline i used to have... not waking up on time is a big problem... doing things slowly, disregarding authorities... hmmmmm...

so as it seems, all these had been a part of me for months, and i doubt that i will ever put in any effort to remove my bad points...

all because im fine with it